Calendar Daily

I needed to see this today.

The past month has been quite a ride. I have not had much time to think or write. My wife's cancer returned mid July.

Since then, she has had one treatment, yesterday's treatment was postponed because her numbers are so low, they don't want to chance completely depleting her cell counts.

It makes me feel so helpless. This for me is a torture no one should have to endure. Watching a loved one suffer through this pain, in fact makes it hard to remain positive.

My hate for God ended 2 years and 11 days ago. Today I am positive, I am hurting yet happy, lastly my wife and I are both sober.

I am centered today, I have a program of recovery with a network, of what I call friends. Through the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous, my gratitude is beaming.

Whatever my future holds, I know my wife will always be on my side, literally. See picture.

I was told when I had this done, it is an omen to have a woman's name tattooed on your body. I digress, I really am grateful that I have defied many odds that friends and even family said were impossible.

My personal milestones that are important to me:

I have been free of heroin and crack for 29 years now.

I have been happily married to my Doll for 24 years. February 14 will be 25!

I have been sober for 2 years 11 months today. My wife will have 3 years in a few days.

I still pray that some family affairs will come to fruition, I am willing, that is key.

Today I remain positive!

Jeff F